I made it!! Mind you, I stayed in bed until 6:00pm when the liquor store closed so I wouldn't go but I still made it. I have passed the 3 day hump I have never been able to pass!!! Thank you all for being encouraging and helpful!! However, I am now in a guilt trip of my own where I am sitting my room, alone, while my babies sleep and my husband is off to the gym, listening to Matchbox 20's Unwell and wondering how did I let this happen to myself? How did I let myself slip into this? Could it have been the fact that I was introduced to beer at the age of 4 by my father? Or the fact that I was the only child, my mother said in her exact words, "we don't have to worry about.".....or being a naieve teenager in an abusive relationship for 4 years? I have no idea but I am sure that I will find out why in the next few weeks.
Regardless, thank you all.