Thank you honeypig. I have said so many things over the years in an attempt to get him to stop drinking and I have never followed through. I think I do want a divorce. He actually told me that he would love for me to come to his new place for dinner and he has imagined this happening but hasn't thought about wanting to come home!! I'm left at home picking up the pieces while he has no responsibilities to me and the kids only himself. It's hard to think that our marriage is over and a divorce will make it all final but I suppose he walked out wanting to drink he's not exactly committed to our marriage!