Recovery growth
N my previous attempts at sobriety, I was able to put together some "dry" time, but my mind wasn't calm. Then I drank again, and tried to force my mind to be calm. Causing me to feel more like I was living a lie. It got me to an emotional bottom. I wanted to give sobriety another shot but was crippled with fear. 8 days ago I made the choice and completely surrendered. In this time I have relied heavily on my HP and have owned my actions and have not blamed my husband or my kids or my work or my family. I drank to run away, and I happy to say that today, I am present. Emotionally and physically and I feel a sense of peace that I have never experienced before. I feel like recovery is clicking, and I hope I can keep this feeling.