As I was reading your post it was like hitting rewind and watching my life when I lived with my AXBF. It also made me glad I was able to detach by moving an hour away and finding peace within myself. I don't ever want to be that lonely person who sat and watched him drink until he passed out on the bed. The way it felt like he wasn't present and I was always waiting for crumbs of affection he rarely threw my way. Thank you so much for posting that. I was definitely in codie mode for a long time and it sucked! I may have still been there if it wasn't for threads like this one!
