Hi Rogue
I know it sometimes seems insurmountable - how do you get sober and yet remain you...how can you keep your life as it is, and not drink...
The answer is I don't think you can. And I'm willing to bet, behind that screaming terror of change most of us have, there's a sizeable part of you that wants more from life than what you have now.
Putting the bottle down is the first step to getting to where you want to be. It;s not easy, and having other addictions, and alcohol related jobs doesn't make it easier...but you will find a ton of support here.
You can have the life you want - whatever that is - if you're prepared to take a bit of a leap of faith and trust that things will be better sober...
They will
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