well right now im all out of compassion and sorry and sympathy and empathy.. i gave him trust when he didnt deserve it.. he KNEW he didnt deserve it.. hes broken it once too often now i think.. but again im being told that i "have to give him this last chance because he is getting help"..
why does everyone feel sorry for HIM and not ONE person asks me how IM feeling? this is not the right place for me right now i dont think...
here he is, out (for the 15th time today)... buying his MOTHER flowers and chocolates and stuffed toys... but theres nothing left for me, not even a sorry or a hug or any kind of move that he also wants to save this marriage.. i know.. take responsibility, walk away, let it go.... right now im taking care of myself the best way i know, and it aint pretty but its MINE and MY way of coping and dealing with MY hurt