it might feel that way, but he would treat anyone in your shoes the exact same way - with abuse and lies and disrespect. because THAT IS WHO HE IS. you can love him from a thousand miles away...love NEVER requires us to stay in harms way, or to be used and abused by the object of our affection.
you deserve better. so much better. he has one priority. ONE. and will mow down anything or anyone that gets in his way. that's not love.