thanks anvil.. unfortunately, my "selfcare" is rather destructive... today im just mainly feeling sick due to having started the new meds my doctor prescribed, but he thinks they should make me better within a week.. but now im on antipsychotics as well as all the other cocktail of drugs hes been prescribing in an attempt to stabilize me in an unstable relationship.
i told him y/day what was at the bottom of the recent relapse and he did give AH a right talking to, not that that made a blind bit of difference.
i hate being sick because of AH's addictions.. i hate what those pills have turned ME into..i used to be a gentle, generous, fun to be around person.. now i look at myself and i dont know ME anymore.. i got left behind in the battlefield somewhere