Folks, I truly appreciate your words, support and advice. I cannot express enough how grateful I am for a place to chat with others about our struggles with alcohol/addiction. I really am thankful for each and every word that you kinds people throw my way and take your replies to heart. Thank you and the guilt is starting to lift a bit and hope is setting back in. I love living without alcohol and that's why I get so confused when I so easily allow myself to go back. Anyway, thank you.