It is easy as you get well to lose sight of the "sheer weight" of this disease. I don't know how I managed to drag myself around so many years and yet that iconic glass of wine, the one that would make everything fun and light again tells me (even at 6 months sober) that it's ok, just one, you can handle it. Complete BS, yeah maybe I could control it initially but then I would be back to chasing it, it would occupy everything. No, not again. It's so much better to be free. Gotta remember that. Sometimes I need reminding. Thanks for your post and stay strong!