Great thread...
Preferred fantasy to reality
Liberated my 'feelings' - although the feelings it liberated were not authentic e.g. for love read mawkish sentimentality and handing my will and life other to the care of other people...etc, etc
Uncomfortable in my own skin
Became my second skin - was always so sensitive & no means to live life as it presented itself, drinking helped me feel invulnerable
Loved the relief - drinking was my sigh of relief, until it wasn't anymore...
Was it worth it? Well feel that I've lived a life where I've learned an awful lot, which is unlikely to have happened without my alcoholism. It's certainly not been dull
