I appreciate the support guys thank you. So far meetings are what is keeping me sane. I am still clean and sober. I am taking it one day at a time. I just have to trust that I will find some work and do what I need to do. Going to meetings makes me feel a part of something. I can't do this alone. I found a sponser and I am pushing myself out of bed everyday. Doing my best to stay in the now. I have to believe this happened for a reason. I was slipping down again, and at least no one got hurt.