I feel the same exact way that you feel.
going on the couch hoping and praying that he leaves me alone. My dog always sleeps next to me too, and when he hears my H coming, he runs for behind the couch or wherever he can hide.
I know that I dont want to live like this anymore. I have said to him on many occasions that I dont want to live like this anymore. It is no surprise.
I will figure out how, what, where and when in due time, but for now I am going to try so hard to only focus on me. I think that is a big part of my problem, I put way to much focus on some undeserving soul, and my soul is so deserving and I dont give it the time of day.
It is not being selfish, It is only taking care of me.