Thank you so much everyone. I keep this tab open and keep reading old posts throughout the day to keep myself strong. But I'm not gonna lie: I think about drinking all the time. It's like an itch you just want to scratch so hard you hurt yourself--which is exactly what alcohol does... hurt you.
I also want to apologize for not being able to send friend requests or reply in the way I wish to. I'm trying to get used to how this forum works, and I'm kinda dumb when it comes to figuring out different systems
:P