I agree with Jeni Hypo - you don't know what the Dr will say until you're there.
Being depressed and anxious sober is better than being drunk - but it's still probably not the best to live a life - you deserve as much happiness as anyone else
and Jeni, you don't know what will happen with this teacher either...she may have changed - and even if she hasn't, you have Jeni.
I think you'll do just fine
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