for its like i can't control myself .i let my emotions get a hold of me .ill be hungover the next day and ill be feeling all kinds of crap.Ill tell myself when the day begins im not going to drink today.i can go the whole day without a drink,my drinking time usually starts .During the day i get the anxiety ill just be thinking about not drinking soo much that ill wind up doing it.Or ill think about the money i waste on buying boozes and ill think about not spending so much ill wind up spending.I know i need to be harder on myself in my life if i want to change .i know i need discipline for that to happen.