Hi jaybe - welcome
for me it wasn't about self discipline. Part of the problem was I really wanted to alter my reality.
I had no discipline at all when it came to alcohol (or drugs for that matter)
When I think about things I did to get wasted there's no logic to it, so trying to apply logic - 'I need more self discipline' - is kind of futile.
I think some things do help - support does...so I'm glad you've joined us.
I think acceptance helps too - I had to accept that drinking made me into someone I didn't want to be....and it always would.
If I wanted to be who I wanted to be, I had to become, and stay, a non drinker.
I had to make some changes to my life. I think that's crucial too. My life and friendships were about drinking. That needed to change.
There are some real benefits to living sober. I like who I am. My life has purpose. My relationships are good. I'm in reasonable health. I'm happy and I know joy again.
Give it a chance Jaybe
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