Hi Lightinside,
Yes I do keep a log of everything that my X does. I also try to be opened minded but of course I catch him in lies. I don’t even call him out on them anymore. I just let them be.
Yesterday, my X told me he didn’t have time to see his son since he has a basketball game. I ask him you are not seeing your son since you have basketball? Keep in mind he is a 30 year old man. After that my X started giving me a hard time and texting me all the way till 11pm. He was ranting about I don’t let him take care of his son, how difficult I am, and how I am a negative person. It’s frustrating that he is like that we me. This is an example; I do now trust him especially with my son. But he claims to be in a better place now.
So today for the first time, I made a decision not to let my X see the baby. His mood swings with me, do not make me comfortable leaving the baby with my X. I did feel bad but I feel like I was left with no choice. It has been 5 months of this and I am just tired of it.