Don't feel pressured to leave him by us, that's your decision. Don't feel weak to come and post here yet stay with him. Don't feel badly about yourself that you are hurting and could use support. If everyone only posted when they were on up days, the forum would lose its purpose. Don't feel out of place if some people who post seem so strong because they are in a different place. Those who reveal the most and reach out the most benefit the most.