I was trying to quit for years and would white knuckle up to 3 months as I could not drink due to working and living in dry communities in Australia. As soon as my 3 month contracts finished I would drink myself into oblivion. The only difference this time is I have been confronted by my husband and family about my drunken behaviour. I have no desire to drink again as I have experienced the feeling of being sober for longer and can't imagine living through another hangover.