Hi, Carlos) Thank you for positive vibes/
I am feeling somewhat better, though still extremely low.
Thinking about dragging myself to a boxing class, but actually not sure. Not sure I have power enough to put on my "usual happy face" and joking with guys about my jabs and so on.
Just feel apathetic and overwhelmed with sense of guilt for "doing nothing" , for wasting my life...
Just sense of being of no value still overweighting all the kind words my friends here are saying to me...Like all this is just a pity and I can't really inspire anyone or whatever...
Sorry to be a downer again... I just hate myself so much at the moment...I keep measuring myself by standards deeply ingrained in me and get in the same trap again and again.
Can't reach my therapist at the moment. Probably she is abroad now.
Thank you all for concern
