Wasn't sure where to post so I thought here was as good a place as any. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME ???????? The last two months or so I feel very unsettled. I feel like the only thing that has changed for me is that I no longer drink. I know deep down that is not true.
I mean I got another job that I really wanted so, now I work two jobs.
I am raising a teenager which is stressful under the best of circumstances but, it seems the longer I am sober the more she acts out. Not sure if this is my imagination.
I am still stuck in this relationship due to a lease and fear of regretting leaving at 37 to start over again.
I feel old.
I still hate this stupid place I live despite knowing that I will not make the kind of money I am making here, anywhere else.
I still feel trapped.... I still feel unhappy.
Of-course the beast loves this sh*t thinking and is preying on it. I have no real thoughts of saying "f*ck it lets have a drink beast.... me and you" however, it is there. I tend to ignore it but, occasionally, especially the last few weeks, I have been entertaining it more than I used to.
I just feel so f***ing trapped and isolated. I feel like there has just got to be more.......
Jess