He successfully (with his defender of cop killers lawyer) managed to amend the no contact to be able to see the girls so I have to exchange them at the Police station at a set time a few days a week for him to see them...
I talked to close friends and all were supportive... I was just in a panic and feeling scared to tell people what had happened and it was dumb of me to worry.
I have a realtor coming tomorrow to talk to her about listing the house bc I do not want to live here anymore... In fact I want to move somewhere even if I have to stay local for now, where he won't have my address.
My lawyer was great this fall (when I had tons of funds for her) and she SUCKS now and is doing absolutely nothing bc money makes the world go round... So, I guess I better hope that the DV folks can help w a permanent RO bc she's doing nothing to help me...
Thank you all for your words of encouragement and support...