To Thine Ownself Be True
I know for me I wouldn't be able to "just do a little of anything", I have the disease of more. If I'm trying to control a substance, "I won't start drinking until 12pm" or "I'll only have 1 or 2", then I know that substance is controlling me and I have a problem. The other thing about this disease is it's cunning, baffling and powerful and I know if I do pick up again that I may not start exactly like I ended up but for sure I'll end up the way I ended up or worse.
I have a friend in the program who has stage 4 cancer, he's bedridden, has been living on borrowed time and he uses marijuana for pain. I can understand that. Would I call him sober/clean? It's not for me to judge. He's on his own path and he continues to be a power of example to me and others.