I LOVE my husband.
Alas, love won't change him, get him sober and back with you and your children. I felt the same way when I separated from the A and thanks to Alanon I realized the problem was I didn't love myself. I also saw that while I loved him I didn't trust or respect him ... aren't these things supposed to be part of love? It's a very tough time, I know. I got through it with the support of Alanon, it saved my sanity. God bless.....