I feel like a fraud for you all thinking I am so strong... I am not. Not at all.
Excuse me for pointing out that you're wrong.
You are strong.
Not many people go through what you have gone through with their fighting spirit intact.
Crying is great -- it releases tensions and, some say, rids the body of toxins. I've noticed it takes more energy to hold emotions inside than to let them out.
I haven't been sleeping the past few nights, I am scared of him retaliating, I am scared of his anger for being held accountable, I am upset at how upset my kids are and his F'ing family has been calling me telling me how worried they are for him and frankly trying to pressure me to amend bail so he can see his kids...
These are all things I would bring up when you testify. It's important that the court sees that
you are living in fear of your life. That your children are traumatized. And you can definitely request that the restraining order you will ask for as part of his sentencing cover his family as well.
Chin up. You can do this.