LADYANGOLA

HI..I AM SORRY THAT THINGS ARE NOT GOING WELL FOR YOU..AND MY PRAYERS ARE WITH YOU AND YOUR FAMILY...BUT I AM AN ALCOHOLIC ALTHOUGH I HAVE NOW BEEN SOBER FOR 5MOS +..I KNOW THAT YOU SAY YOU AND THE KIDS NEED CHRIS..BUT CHRIS REALLY NEEDS TO GET HELP BOTH FOR THE ABUSE OF ALCOHOL..AND THE ABUSE OF YOU...YOU SAID IT WAS THE FIRST TIME WELL BE PREPARED.. IT WILL NOT BE THE LAST ..AND THE KIDS WILL SUFFER ALSO...I WAS A PRODUCT OF A HOME THAT MY DAD GOT DRUNK AND YELLED AT MOM ALL THE TIME...WHICH LEAVES A KID HELPLESS AND CRYING(NOT GOOD)...THEN ONE DAY HE SLAPPED HER AND TRIED TO CHOKE HER I WAS IN MY ROOM PEEKING OUT AND SAW THE WHOLE THING...(THE KIDS ALWAYS KNOW MORE THAN WE THINK..)I WAS 9YRS OLD DO YOU KNOW.. I DID NOT SPEAK OF THIS TILL I WAS 34YRS OLD AND MY FATHER WAS IN THE HOSPITAL..DYING OF CANCER...(I HAD A RELATIONSHIP W/HIM THROUGHOUT THE YEARS...ON AND OFF.. GOOD AND BAD..MY MOM DIED WHEN I WAS 12YRS OLD DRUG OD)....WELL THE LAST THING I SAID TO HIM AND I AM SURE THAT HE HEARD ME...I BENT OVER HIM...WHISPERED IN HIS EAR..."DAD I LOVE YOU..BUT I HOPE YOU BURN IN HELL...YOU SON OF A """....."AND THAT WAS BECAUSE I NEVER COULD ERASE THE IMAGE OF HIM HURTING MY MOM...SOMETHING HE NEVER KNEW I SAW....PLEASE DON'T THINK THAT THIS MAN..IS GOOD FOR YOUR KIDS OR YOU..NOT IN THE CONDITION HE IS IN.AT LEAST.....IT WILL ONLY GET WORSE IF HE DOES NOT STOP DRINKING..AND YOU HAVE A RESPONSIBLITY TO YOURSELF AND YOUR KIDS TO KEEP YOURSELF SAFE...HAVE YOU TRIED AL-ANON....ALOT OF PEOPLE SAY IT HELPS...PLEASE I URGE YOU TO SEEK HELP FOR YOURSELF AND THE KIDS....I KNOW YOU DON'T WANT TO HEAR THIS BUT..MAYBE JAIL WOULD BE GOOD FOR HIM IT MAY DRY HIM OUT..AT LEAST...AND HE SHOULD BE ORDERED TO TAKE ANGER MNGT..TOO...HE NEEDS HELP...ALCOHOLISM DOES NOT GIVE YOU A RIGHT OR AN EXCUSE TO PHSYCIALLY HARM PEOPLE CLOSE TO YOU....ALCOHOLICS DO ALOT OF MENTAL DAMAGE TO ALL...BUT TRYING TO HURT YOU THAT HAS STEPPED WAY OVER THE LINE...WELL I SAID MY PEACE..IT JUST HURT TO HEAR THAT YOU WERE ABUSED LIKE THAT BUT WHAT HURT MORE (READ YOUR POST OUTLOUD)..IS THAT YOU PRACTICALLY EXCUSED IT.. BECAUSE HE WAS DRUNK..AND IT WAS THE FIRST TIME..AND YOU ARE WILLING TO RISK IT AGAIN..BECAUSE YOU"NEED"HIM...I HAVE LIVED WHERE YOU ARE..ONLY AS A CHILD...AND BELIEVE ME.. THEY DO NOT NEED THAT...I WILL PRAY THAT YOU FIND AWAY..TO HELP YOURSELF AND YOUR KIDS AND THAT HE FINDS THE HELP HE NEEDS TO BE THE PERSON..YOU WISH HE WAS....BEST OF LUCK TO YOU...AND GOD BLESS....