Team Blake- Have you ever had a horrible cut? One that was so bad it required a big bandage with gauze? As you think how did the wound occurred you ask yourself why did I do that? if I didn't I would of never injured myself.
As the days go by and you clean the wound you really examine the cut. You start to notice the wound not as a wound but how the body looks underneath the cut. Then you realize how the body is amazing, things are happening cells are repairing all you have to do is keep it clean and wait. Then the skin heals on top. Most of the skin is back to the way it was prior but the scar will always be there. Then the best part the wound stops to ache. Life goes on and you don't think about it.
Blake you are wounded but if you keep picking at your wound and bringing yourself back to the scene you could re injure yourself. Keep cleaning your wound (al-anon, therapy etc) and watch the amazing way you begin to heal.