Originally Posted by
patricia68 
How do I get that courage Tomsteve? I feel like a complete failure right now.
The first month I still had some xanax around because I was normally taking for my anxiety. But my husband knows everything, so I gave the script to him. He monitors me when I ask him for one. Funny thing is that I only asked 2 times in first 30 days. If I had to do it on my own, I might not be able to get through it as easy. Have you thought about telling your spouse. Maybe he will help with things that you may not even realize you need. Simple things that may help you get along this path easier.
It is scary feeling and what I think Tomsteve meant was you won't really know how the night goes until you try it. if there was a way you could give your script to someone you trust so you have nothing in house. see how you do and go from there. One day at a time.
You are not a failure. You came here and that is better than many people out there. The fact that you have strength to vent on SR means you will find the courage, cuz its already there but just been hiding inside for some time.