Originally Posted by
Brincess 
Blake. You're not alone. I too finally sent the hardest text of goodbye to my abf. I thought we were meant to be together and we had been engaged as well. But alcohol destroys and it was slowly destroying him and quickly destroying me. Well it's been a week now and I feel a tremendous burden off my shoulders. A contentment with my life that I don't think I've ever felt. Finally!!! I've chosen something right for ME!!!! It feels great. I feel happy. I don't know how I stayed in thAt chaos and fear for almost a year. Life is so much more. We just have to choose that we want more than misery. Today as I dropped off my kids (to my ex) I realized that they come first and I will never lose sight of that again. They are tiny people who deserve to be protected from as much as I possibly can. They are happier and they see me happier. All in just one week. Stick with your decision Blake it's so worth it
Thanks a lot Brincess for sharing your story. Sounds like we have been through some similar things in the last week - crazy. I really believed we were meant to be together, too, and for the first time in my life I went looking at rings at Tiffany before I knew the scope of the problem. She beat me to it and proposed the next day, I said yes, but obviously it wasn't a 'real' engagement. She had been drinking.
Chaos is the word my therapist uses, too. While I am on edge still about her actions, I feel that life is out there. I was going to write a thread about it but I'm still processing and don't have much to offer yet, and still in some fear. Not to be too gross, but I had constant diarrhea the past 2 months when things got more aggressive/violent towards me, especially on days when I was supposed to see her. I saw a GI specialist and he said I have irritable bowel from anxiety. After breaking up, I'm eating more (I often could only eat a yogurt the whole day) and those GI problems have vanished almost immediately. kind of mind blowing.