One thing i know for sure is that drinking will not make ANYTHING better!By ending up iin the hospital have you not proven to yourself where alcohol takes you?
I know that being confused, upset, well there are a million excuses we as alcoholics use to drink. But just by getting rid of the booze, taking it one moment at a time and slowing down you will get by those moments. Keep coming back here I'm rooting for you and praying. \\//Peace and God bless