Sometimes, rarely, I've had dreams of being on a date with an ex. No matter how pleasant the dream interaction, the person is an ex for a lot of fantastic reasons, and I would never want to be hanging out with them in the real world. Same with alcohol!! Remember the last hangover, how awful the withdrawals were. Go online and watch some you tube videos of people talking about relapse, and how it took them right back to a really dark place. Most importantly, just do not drink!!