Dee, sorry you are having a bad day. Yes, I don't know why it took me the entire week to realize I had, I guess, unconsciously lost my faith... glad I have it back! It was a horrible ride.
Take care of yourself, if you can work in a hot bath/shower and let the warm water heal your aches and pains, stop and breath deeply, light a few candles, stop and breath deeply, rub some nice smelling lotion on your body, stop and breath in the good smell of the lotion and the candles, and know you are not alone.
I know this can be a anxious, sad time, but it can also be an exciting time. Hopefully tonight you will feel better. I wish you well in this new journey. Dee, my thoughts and prayers are with you.