I don't know where you are in your sobriety, but my first 6 months I found I had all these emotions it was hard to feel...I'd been numbing myself for so long I didn't know how to deal with my feelings.
It took me a long time to deal, and then I'd deal with stuff only to have it pop up again.
I just wanted to say I relate and it's ok...and maybe be a little patient with yourself?