feelings suck
I am feeling some feelings that are uncomfortable for me. I went to a meeting today and told my sponsor that I needed to talk to her and she told me to write about it then call her. So I did that and left a voicemail. I had a meltdown this afternoon and cried a lot to my friend over the phone. I just don't like a side of myself right now and it is really bothering me. My relationship with my parents is bothering me and my past actions. Eventhough I have been through all the steps and have made my amends I still cant forgive myself. Resentments that I thought had gone away honestly against my parents have popped up again. I feel better now that I talked to someone. But dealing with feelings suck my natural instinct is to drink and hide. I haven't had a desire to drink but I know if I don't deal with them in a healthy way then I will end up drinking in the future.