Sorry it happened like that Sally. I wouldn't call that 11 months down the drain. Learn from it and stop this before it goes further. You are doing that thing we like to do when we screw up and that's throw the blame. It's not your sponsors fault you stopped working your program. It's not your friend's fault you took all those pills. Why did you take so many if they didn't work anyway? I am not saying you should beat yourself up over this you screwed up like most of us have. You do have to take responsibility for how it went wrong to fix it though.