Well not to bust a bubble but 5 years isn't squat. This is a life long disease . Our sobriety is contingent upon our spiritual condition.
I've wonders on many occasion what goes on when people go back to drinking. First thing I hear they stopped going to meetings!
I believe they quit living the program.
Every morning I say my prayers try and be of service to others and give a thankful prayer at the end of the day. Most importantly I'm grateful to be off the merry go round of drinking.