Originally Posted by
JustAGirl1971 
I think there are two reasons I do this (not sure if yours are the same.) The first is that I still need/want affirmation that I am worth loving? The other is just that I want confirmation that the good times and the love were real and not a fabrication of my mind.
for me, it is definitely the second one. A large part of me is still in shock that something so good when so bad and so any hint that she may feel the same is one I grab onto.
However, it seems she didn't find the meeting useful either!
I e-mailed her on my return just to let her know that we could adjust the kids rota if she wanted ( and a few other things she had asked for) I also said it was good that she seemed to be doing well. It was polite but caring.
lol..... She has just e-mailed me saying stuff along the lines of:
" I don't think we should meet again-let's do it all by e-mail. I was doing really well until today.
We don't need to change the Rota, I will get by on my own the way I always have to"
I think the bit that really annoys her is that the weekends are really busy getting the kids to places and she has that this weekend.... She was hinting that we should share the children between us but I thought it better (for now) that they are either with her or me. she then said it was fine to me because I had parents who could babysit and help......I said "yes, its handy... Why wouldn't I use my family to help"
Of course, she can't do that..... Because she shut them out and her "gang" of friends aren't quite as good as babysitting at all hours as decent parents can be!