I'm sorry bookreader. I'm glad that you came to get that off your chest here in this safe place. We all know how this feels. The thought of it is horrible, but as the addiction progresses & our recovery progresses, we sometimes see this as a relief because it gets our loved ones in a safer place than they were & we know they have a roof over their head & food to eat & a bed to sleep on. The drugs are harder to get there too. I hope this is one of those mixed emotions kinda times for you. I'm still sorry that things are this way with your son. I know how much it hurts. ((((((HUGS))))))