I spend a lot of time trashing my body with cigarettes and alcohol. A LOT.
I just wonder why I don't spend that time being NICE to myself?
You have to fill your time somehow, so why did I choose a path that is so harmful to myself?
Why am I not addicted to self-care, nurturing myself with exercise, rest, a clean house, eating well every day, eating at all every day, etc...
I want to go therapy again and figure out why I have an underlying mindset of deserving the bad and not the good. And if I can't figure out why, I'll work on training myself into the good habits until I see the results and get on the right track..
Food for thought.
xoxo, thanks for the welcome back, Kaneda. I'm going to do whatever it takes, I really like having all you guys as part of life... Reflecting and hashing things out here is so helpful and supportive. We are good people.