worriedmind---good for you that you have come this far!! You DO have the strength to follow through. Just because you caved before--doesn't mean that you will this time.
Keep your GOAL in the forefront of your mind...all the time. Write it on a card and ca in your pocket if you have to. Also make a list of the reasons that you know you need to leave--and carry this in your pocket, also. I'm not kidding....this helps a lot....I did the bad list thing, one time.....
In life, sometimes we have to go through short-term pain for long term gain.
We, also, don't know h ow brave we can be until there are no other options. Brave shows up at those times---like magic.....LOL.
dandylion