I have done all these things too, many times. You are not alone so don't worry about that. Start over and recognise the cravings and fight them by, as everyone else says, extra support, posting on here next time you feel like that and keeping vigilant in the knowledge that this happens. These feelings do subside when you have more sober time so fight them until then. I wish you all the very best and hope you continue with your sobriety because you obviously enjoyed it. xxxxx