I am so sad and disappointed over this. I am well aware it's a total overreaction and it's triggering my family of origin stuff, which is actually good because I can take it to my therapist and sort through it. I have to keep reminding myself that the fact that my comptuer is broken is not my fault. It's just a thing.
I am sitting here bawling my eyes out over it. I'm a camel and it's the straw. I've been hanging on by my fingernails over all my work stuff. I'm taking beta blockers to prevent the severe heart palpitations I've been having.
This is just a huge setback for me. I will talk to the tech when they call me and find out what options there are. I would prefer for them to replace it.
Maybe I an arrange for my parents to spend the day here and deal with the computer guy. My dad wouldn't mind doing that and I'm sure my mother will be thrilled at having the opportunity to snoop through my flat while I'm out
