I can't seem to calm down. Need to do something else to take my mind off. I keep trying to do the 'hand it over' thing, but it doesn't stop me worrying.
I know what needs to be done but that doesn't stop me worrying about it. I will worry until all the boxes are ticked and the issue is 'closed'. This is a negative that I am working on in therapy. I have no internal facility to put things to one side. I wake up with panic attacks at 3 in the morning. I have been to hospital a couple of times because of them. Everything crowds in on me until it's 'done'. I have so much on my plate right now that I am barely coping with that this has just pushed me over the edge.
The meeting didn't really help much. I was too agitated and the flourescent lights were flickering and gave me a headache.
Ok time to watch a movie.