Went to an AA meeting this morning and
I drove way out of my way to go to a meeting because there are so few where I live. It took 90 minutes to get there but I felt like I needed to go. I called in late to work. I was amazed at the length of sobriety some of the people have. One woman was celebrating 24 years sober and they gave her a chip. I find it overwhelming to even think about not drinking today or tomorrow or this coming weekend. How can someone make it for 24 years? It actually kind of scared me. I think I had the wrong reaction.
Well today is day 4. I am afraid to drink again because I do not ever want to have to stop again but I am also afraid to think about not drinking. Once again I feel like I am writing something that makes no sense.