Originally Posted by
Lola23 
Today I'm going back to work after pretty much a 5 day binge and I'm terrified about how I'm going to feel in a few hours.
Yup 5 day binges were my norm near the end with a day off here and there. Tried moderating and nope didn't work. I would just end up drinking even more. I literally cannot stop once I start. It was like water to me.
I have totally given up alcohol and I will never beable to drink again. If I went back to it, I would pick up where I left off. It wouldn't be one drink, it would be a couple of bottles. I think it would kill me if I went back, I don't think I would be able to recover from it. It would literally kill my soul.