Hope you feel better. Don't beat yourself up. Just stop and start over again. I do remember it is easier to stay stopped than it is to stop again. I have since last thursday since I drank or used and when I feel like using I remind myself how hard it was just getting a few days so far.
Anyway. Yeah. I understand though. I can get so down on myself for messing up and it really doesn't do me any good.
be well