Originally Posted by Ghostlight1

Not to worry. I failed dozens of times. It took me a long time to become an alcoholic and it's taken me a long time to recover.
I joined here six years ago (under a different name) and I've been sober for three years. Took me awhile.
Save yourself the misery I went through and stop drinking. You can do it. Many find AA helpful. There are other programs. Come here and post. Whatever it takes.

Best to you.