With all do respect to everyone here, but I even have problems placing a higher power on mother nature or science, etc. Why would mother nature care if I drank? My drinking has no impact on science or how the world functions. The world will continue to turn with or without me.
I get how believing in a sense of a God could work. He is suppose to love you and has a special plan for you. But, science? The inner workings of the world have no special plan for anyone and is completely neutral not benevolent.
Sorry if I coming off rude as I really don't mean too, but I've been having this problem with AA from the beginning and am struggling to get past it somehow as well.