My profession also completely involves alcohol. It's everywhere.
I always though it was an inevitable part of the act.
Also the fact that there is such a history in my family made me believe that I was destined to be ruled by booze, and I would probably die from it like family members, best friends, and heroes had.
The reality is that's all crap. You don't have to be ruled by it.
You have to get the strength together to make the decision to free yourself from it.
Many people here say once you clear that first hurdle, you begin to see that you really do not have to drink, and things get better.
I'm starting to see the results of my new found freedom and you can too.
Get whatever help you need to achieve your goal, you'll see it is very much worth it.